Sunday, March 13, 2011

i will not live too safely …

...growing up I missed out on countless opportunities, allowing the world to pass me by as I sat on the sidelines frozen by fear.  It was impossible for God to let me experience the thrill of  seeing him work through me because I rarely gave him the opportunity.  Since I have dared to  jump out of my comfort zone I have never experienced so much life! GAH!!! I am so grateful to be here!!!

That being said lets review the past couple weeks:

“kayla every time i see you, you are more fat …” (yes this was said to me)

i got sick …again! – but this time only for 2 days

focusing too much on the tangible aspects of ministry instead of the relational

All these things were not making me feel too good.  So the other day tired of feeling tired and mopey, allowing worldly things to affect my mood, I was walking to my bus stop and i think to myself “Ewww I feel disgusting” – but instead of wallowing I say to God “God I'm not even going to think about how little energy I feel I have today for I know that YOU have all the energy that I need so I will instead focus on YOU and serving YOU to the best of my abilities for I know that my strength lies in YOU.” After I chuckled to myself as I knew my disgustingness had no chance muahaha! God has been drilling into me the necessity of depending on Him for everything, nothing is too big or too small!

“Look to the Lord and his strength; seek his face always.” 1 Chronicles 16.11

PRAISE  I have to go to Nicaragua next weekend (24-27th) and until Thursday I was hitting it up solo yet again, not so ideal.  As big as my muscles are I’m not sure how bullet proof they are… But my Dad can now sleep peacefully because not only do I have a partner in crime BUT through my delightful curling connections I have a wonderful house to stay at – for free!!! AND if that wasn’t amazing enough we do not even  have to hunt down the house because the lady who stays there is coming to pick us up from the bus stop! What a guy this Jesus character eh?!

I am a proud auntie!!! My friend Jenn survived birthing her first toddler at 9lbs 3 ounces!

I’ve also decided to redefine the word fat –in Spanish ‘gorda’  so that next time it’s thrown out – and we know it will be. I won’t feel like jabba the hut (haha yeeeaah that was a star wars reference).

G= gifted hugger

O= open ears for listening

R= reeeally cool, I mean reeeeallly

D= diabolically delightful dancer

A= alarmingly amAzing                                                                 ….I am humble, I swear

PRAYER  I have been very blessed with strong friendships and many people are very comfortable opening up with me.  The past few weeks I have learned things that have made me very sad, aka time to pray.  As these things were said to me in confidence I will not use names:

  • A friend of mine informed me that he has walked away from the Lord because he doesn’t feel he is important to God and doesn’t understand why people serve God or do things just because they love Jesus.  I was heartbroken; later I learned he is engulfed in pornography and promiscuity.  I made sure he knew that Jesus and I would love  him no matter what he’s done.  He let me pray for him – yay! Please pray with me that God will seduce his heart so the Holy Spirit can infiltrate.  The most encouraging part of our conversation was when he told me  “the door is shut, but not locked” – he was very adamant that it wasn’t locked!
  • Another friend was attacked last weekend, she is doing well; she’s actually in very good spirits – no physical injuries!  Please pray for her protection (she’s been threatened numerous times) and that God will continue to strengthen her daily.  She reminds me very much of the Samaritan woman who met Jesus at the well. How she was ashamed to be around the community because of her lifestyle but after meeting Jesus she unashamedly rejoiced and opened the eyes and hearts of many.  I’m so lucky to have such cool friends!
  • My prayer for myself and the other leaders of New Horizons is:
    “I urge you to live a life worthy of the calling you have received. Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love.  Make every effort to keep the unity of the Spirit through the bond of peace.  There is one body and one Spirit, just as you were called to one hope when you were called;  one Lord, one faith, one baptism;  one God and Father of all, who is over all and through all and in all.  But to each one of us grace has been given as Christ apportioned it.” -Ephesians 4.1-7

sweatjealous of my mad indoor soccer skills some of the boys confused me for a towel and decided to wipe their nasty sweat all over my arms and shirt ….eau de teenage boy = ewww!

1 comment:

  1. It is so cool that the people down there are opening their lives to you and that through that you can share Jesus with them! You are continually being prayed for and it's so obvious that that God is opening so many doors because of the prayers! Keep trusting in Him, in His protection, and in His love. He never fails and His plans and purposes for your life are nothing but GOOD :)

    Love always - your sis for eternity - Heather

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